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It’s impossible for Kaveh to disguise emotions. Whenever he tries to do so, it winds up an issue that must later be dragged out from the shadows. He’s overreacting because he cares, even if he steps on a few wrong branches.

It’s not easy living here. Always reminded that Alhaitham and him aren’t what they used to. “What?” He asks breathlessly, fully aware that a reaction like this is bound to garner a sarcastic remark. Of course he heard him right. “You’re saying you have to go back there after what happened?! Isn’t that supposed to be in the hands of the matra now?” More importantly, Alhaitham is actually willing to give himself a headache and take Kaveh along?

Alhaitham finishes tugging his shirt in place, tucking the hem neatly into his waistline, adjusting the sash to his preferred position, and ensuring that there's no hair nor stitch out of place. He glances up, the eyebrow uncovered by his grey hair raising slightly. "I haven't had a proper meal yet. Let's go get something to eat first."

“Alhaitham!” It is true that Kaveh is also starving for a meal but he detests it when Alhaitam blatantly ignores him like this. Part of him thinks he does it on purpose most of the time, knowing how much it grates his nerves. He observes him adjust his shirt back into place again with arms crossed, brows creased. “Will you talk to me after we eat?”

He checks he has everything (including both keys), and he shrugs. "Of course," very noncommital. He doesn't really understand what else there is to talk about. He has reported the issue to the authorities already, and of course, there's the subject that Kaveh is upset about that he'll delve into later. He cants his head towards the door. "Technically I haven't stopped."

“You changed the subject,” he clarifies as they both head out to the evening. He keeps on glancing at him and the fresh cloth wrapping his wound. “I— Ugh, what do you want to eat?” It’s not like he wants to discuss anything serious over a meal and in public. Enough people see them together regularly like this after all, and he wants to avoid any other rumors.

"Is there anything else about it we need to discuss?" He asks genuinely, as though the Scribe is wondering if they missed anything on a shopping list, like many times before. From his point of view, the issue of his delay, his injury, and his exhaustion, all had been taken care of by standard process, Kaveh's expert bandaging, and a day of sleep, respectively. But then again, he supposes that something like this has lingering somethings underlining the situation that Kaveh, with his sense and sensibility, taps onto. "I was thinking of a Shawarma Wrap, but I'm open to suggestions."

"Well, not right now, no. After we eat," that buys him enough time to debate himself whether he should open up about his own issues. In all fairness, he knows he should. Then part of him remembers that neither of them have a right to their private business anymore. "I don't mind a Shawarma wrap. We can share one, it'll be less expensive," and then Alhaitham has less to hang over his head. "What do you think of Fontaine?" Comes out seemingly out of the blue, but really, he keeps thinking about it lately; how it is excruciating living with him and how nothing has changed.

"Fontaine?" That's surprising, but it's not the first, nor he would assume it would be the last, time that Kaveh would bring something up that would stir under the surface of his thoughts like a Wenut on the prowl. Alhaitham makes no mention of splitting a wrap; he's assuming he's famished, but he'll see how much of it will be wanting to eat at the time. "I've heard some travelers mentioning how tense it's been there, lately," he opens the door to Lambad's tavern ahead of him to let Kaveh walk through first—done thoughtlessly, as though it's second nature. He knows that Kaveh's mother lives and works there, and that is often a worrying concept for him. "Did you hear news from your mother?"

It wouldn't be the first time he brings it up. Alhaitham is prone to listening about Kaveh's most intimate aspects of life, that being what's left of his family. Bound by blood but separated by fate. He clings to this idea that family will have meaning once again in the future.

He walks into Lambad and past Alhaitham's kindness which is also second nature. They might be like water and oil most of the time, but their bodies sometimes speak for themselves. Kaveh finds a table upstairs for the two and sits by the window. Their complimentary drinks are given right on cue and as if they were expected. So, Kaveh drinks. "I, well. Yes. Apparently, the housing system there is going through a reform so she is to either move farther away from the city and commute to work, or bunk with another family. I haven't written back," his twenty-million mora is pending and he doesn't believe he actually made that much money until he sees it. "I plan to send her some money for the time being." And if that doesn't work, then he'll have no choice but to move. He avoids eye contact with him when he thinks about it. In theory, this would be the best option for the two. His heart just can't stand the idea.

Mora is a catalyst. Not just in regards to its usage in crafting, how it works as a path to transform one thing into another, transfer and transform energy, but in everything else as well. He'll hand it over to the God of Geo—he created something that shaped the whole of Teyvat, wrapped around his grasp. With the death of Rex Lapis, Alhaitham did hear the people at work consider the possibility of the Golden House's mint halting eventually and its repercussions. While creating money can make prices inflate, and the catalyst itself loses its power, a stop can mean inequality, less market, and more tense relationships. Everything wins value, but with it, access is less frequent.

Such are the rules of economy, anyway. Alhaitham did manage to study them plenty, but he wonders if there's more to it if the possibility does happen.

After all, Mora seems to be what drives Kaveh nowadays. Like many people, anyway. The presence of money can highlight existing values, priorities, and insecurities within relationships. It can reveal disparities in financial contributions, expose differing attitudes towards wealth and spending, and challenge the sense of fairness and trust between individuals. Money can become a symbol of success, power, and social standing, fueling desires and ambitions that may not align with the core values and aspirations of partners or friends.

Of course, though, Alhaitham finds mora as a means to trade and create a lifestyle more than any of those ideals attached to it or the ideals attached to the lack of it. Mora is a tool, and the lack of it means the lack of access to it.

So when Kaveh suddenly decides that the table is the most interesting thing in the world, he notices. Of course, he notices. Alhaitham takes a sip of his drink before ordering two wraps and some sides because he is, indeed, famished, and feels like eating the whole stock. If that were in the realm of possibility, anyway.

The situation in Fontaine seems to be worsening. He had heard of the waterline crisis, the strange dichotomy of the liberties that technology provides, the arts coming from there, and the strictness around them. He frowns. "Are you concerned about rent?"

Mora is such a dangerous concept. It makes or destroys individuals, the latter being true most of the time. Whether it's due to a surplus or poverty, Kaveh has had a taste of both sides. Helping others is where true happiness lies, and even so, he can hardly do that unless he uses mora in some way.

He's trying to convince himself in the back of his mind that Fontaine might suit him more. Even after Sages were overthrown, most people here still don't understand the value of an artist.

"When is rent not an issue? Of course I am. And on top of that, all the debt, too. Let's just enjoy ourselves and eat. This conversation is going to suck the taste off of the food," a sigh jets out, he looks the other way - towards his glass of wine, and picks it up to chug.

It's not like he can stop Kaveh from drinking, though he does know how that often ends. Alhaitham doesn't even frown when the architect tries to dismiss inconvenient conversation over a drink, because he's witnessed that just as frequently. The former tends to be a product of the latter, in fact.

If the money sent to his mother is nothing but a common worry about which Alhaitham has been a soundboard for Kaveh to get his ideas in order and his frustrations out of his system before, then there must be another variable to have him ask about his thoughts on the place. The question is what variable that would be?

Though Alhaitham prefers a certain method to find out when it comes to the Light of Kshahrewar: just bluntly asking. "Why are you asking me about Fontaine, then?"

It is true that his dismissal is almost hypocritical. Kaveh's chest is full of unspoken words that he would rather choke on than admit. "I just wanted your opinion on the situation there, that's all. Everything else, well, that can wait for another time. It's drinking time now," it's almost like he's telling himself that to avoid going on about the topic after he inevitably gets drunk.

Though he still waits until their food arrives, he wants to at least enjoy the feast, too. Another dinner, another debt. "How come you never have anything to complain about? How does your arm feel?"

"Well, if you must know: I find it rather concerning," he'll admit to his roommate because if he's worried, then perhaps he can work as a sanity check, a reassurance that Kaveh is not worrying over nothing. "It's good that your mother is moving, but I do wonder why we haven't heard of an initiative at a larger scale." Granted, logistics and construction would definitely be a concern, but Fontaine is one of the most advanced places in terms of technology. Surely, they'd think of something?

He should try and find some books about it. That and, if the Traveler's path is to be of any reference, he's sure they'll head to Fontaine soon after they've explored enough of Sumeru to find some answers, at least.

The food does arrive fairly quickly. The order was simple, and Lambad had the proper meat for the wraps always ready to be sliced for a quick meal. It's one of the most innovative things about the tavern, really. Perhaps aligned with the design of the second floor. Alhaitham's lip quirks, but it may just be because he's glad the food has finally arrived. "It stings when I move. Why, would it make you feel better if I complained about it all the time?"

"I didn't say she would be moving, but that she may have no choice," he clarifies quickly before taking another sip of wine. The depth in which his feelings go for the situation is driving nails into his heart. Sometimes Kaveh doesn't have to speak to tell someone what's bothering him. Still, there are many more thoughts that still plague him and they all revolve around the man sitting in front of him.

"Uhm. Then don't move so much. It's not about me wanting to hear all about your complaints. Your life... Is just...Well, nevermind," he's perfect is what he's trying to say. It's the perfect time now to busy his mouth by stuffing it with some food.

Any other time and Alhaitham would point out that the logistics of moving, regardless of choice or not, still existed and that's what he had referred to, but for now, he takes a rather large bite of his wrap. Immediately he realizes he really needed it — the exhaustion of the previous day still needed some recovering.

"How am I supposed to not move it, then? Doing this with one hand is only going to spell disaster," though the Scribe does hone in on the faltering of that end of the sentence, Alhaitham quickly makes a few deductions. "Do you honestly believe I don't have anything to complain about in my life?"

The spices are perfection, sating every starving bit of him. It's not so hot or spicy, and yet the flavors are still impactful. He's glad Alhaitham settled for two separate servings.
"Um," under ideal circumstances, Kaveh might throw a flirty line. It's bitter swallowing the words. "Not that I would know, you don't talk about your issues with me."

That's the second time in a row that he watches Kaveh falter. Usually, he's snappier. He remembers how they used to go unrelentingly back and forth. More than how they found each other insufferable and stubborn, chasing after that last word, Alhaitham knows that they were worse for those who were not part of the conversation and were mere bystanders who happened upon their long discussions and bickering.

What exactly changed here? Their fallout? Before that? After? He's unsure of the timeline.

He takes his time chewing, wiping the corner of his mouth with his thumb. He flicks his hand in half a shrug, the motion making him only wince to anyone with a sharp eye. "I could start complaining how last night's circumstances only prove me right in the sense that kind of work should be conducted in another way, and how upset I am that it ruined my dinner plans. But I see the point to do it when it's something I can't do anything about."

Alhaitham sits in front of him, so within reach. Yet nebulas away from the shadow they used to be. Kaveh’s hostility is a guarded anchor and what he believes will keep them bound. Because what else do they have otherwise?

“If you still want me going with you then I will. You seldom find yourself hurt, you should still talk to the sages, too. Perhaps they will let you have a matra join you when things like that arise. I can’t believe that guy still has followers, what a disgrace to Sumeru and its people,” the wine makes him ramble, but he’s not drunk yet. He just wants to feel numb enough.

Kaveh notices his wincing, but offers no words in regards. He simply sends odd a scolding with his gaze, and drinks more wine. To Kaveh, Alhaitham’s body speaks far louder, he always has.

On the surface of things, it would all look normal. Alhaitham's tendency to sit while leaning back, Kaveh's own to lean forward, making the table hold the weight of his chest. The snaps and comebacks and retorts are a constant, the challenge being volleyed between them. Nothing seems to have changed.

Except, underneath the table, their legs and knees used to bump, to rest on each other, ankles hooked, feet nudging each other to make a point, to add a little flare to innuendo, to tell the other to shut up after a particularly bad inside joke. Now, everything is quiet under the lacquered surface, even if Alhaitham's legs are still thrown forward, just a little sideways.

Alhaitham rolls his eyes in a way to tell Kaveh he knows, it's just something he can't avoid every now and then. He glances at his own cup of wine, perfectly aware that the alcohol in it would make his blood thinner. Things tend to spill out unannounced when too much of it is involved. But he reckons this quantity shouldn't be enough to cause damage.

He's been wrong before.

"I'll send word to Cyno," is his roundabout way of reassuring the architect. "Would you really go with me even if you were busy with a client, though?" He takes a sip of his drink, already knowing the answer, but still throwing the question, anyway.

Kaveh is hyperaware of everything that's missing. It's a lot more painful than anything else he has experienced, watching someone he yearns for feel farther and farther each passing day. He convinced himself long ago that they're not compatible, and so he suffers with every sip of wine.

"What's that about, I know you agree with me," he quips back at his demeanor and takes another bite of food. Kaveh pulls his ankles back under his chair to ensure they never touch Alhaitham. Every motion has thought, every thought drains him of energy.
"I wouldn't be busy with a client, assuming you told me in advance when you plan to investigate the issue again. But the short answer is yes. Mehrak is quite useful when disputes turn physical."

"Yes, but you know how habits are difficult to tone down," he replies before he finishes his own wrap. He's tempted to order another. Maybe half of one, if Kaveh still wants to eat some more.

It's odd how absence works. Kaveh and Alhaitham are still present in each other's lives, it's odd when they have a day where they don't see each other at least once. And yet, it's as though their presence means absence.

He had once read that presence solidified relationships, and absence sharpened the feelings within them.

While he had wondered what happened if that were the case, when you had both, now he does know. It feels like a weapon, suffocating in its weight, hurtful in the edge of the void it creates. "I doubt we'll need to enter a dispute if we think about our approach carefully." He gingerly crosses his arms as he leans back, glancing at his own arm to check on the bandages Kaveh wrapped. "Tomorrow evening, then. There's space in my schedule."

It's apparent that Kaveh has had his fill with his wrap. He sets the plate aside so he can keep on his leisure drinking. Kaveh almost takes his words personally, the alcohol does offer him a padding to emotions in some cases. Truthfully, it's hard to tell what Alhaitham might be up against when Kaveh gets drunk.

There are reasons why Kaveh normally picks at Alhaitham's habit of disappearing in his free time. In real terms, none of them should be concerned with what the other does, yet they always find themselves exploring that line of thinking. At least Kaveh has a better idea now, as his gaze also roams to the wrapping on his arm.
His innate curiosity about Alhaitham is not something he's willing to part with yet.
"W-Wait, tomorrow?! But you haven't had a chance to heal yet! And the evening is the most dangerous time, too, are you crazy?"

That's when Alhaitham leans in and picks up the remnants Kaveh left on his plate. No 'are you going to eat that' or questioning look, he just goes for it. Despite the void their conflict created, the comfort between them still lingers; Alhaitham has no qualms about invading Kaveh's personal space, touching things that are still warm from the architect's touch, flicking sand out of each other's clothes.

That curiosity, though, is not something that his avian eyes have missed, but the Scribe has trouble understanding. Sure, even the ever-knowing Cyno wonders what he's up to, but he never really thought that just because he never replied to a non-existent question of where he was and what he was doing, that it would latch some odd air of mystery to him. Then again, in most cases, it's a good thing that no one ever actually comes forth to ask.

On the other hand, he finds the answer rather obvious: what else would he be doing, if not reading in a quiet spot in town, pausing occasionally to consider what he just read, to rest his eyes in the environment around him, to bird watch, to have a drink or to look around the market? What else would he be doing if not working during his appointed schedule? It's not like he's been interested in anything (or anyone) else. Most of the things he's been doing that go out of his routine and relative peace are brought upon the people he had met while taking down Azar. Nilou, inviting him over to watch her latest show, or to fact check a script; Tighnari, when their work intersects somehow, and Cyno when he finds him haggling the price for a particular TCG card. Dehya, when work brings her into the city, and Candace, insisting, in that 'no other option available' manner of hers, on him staying for dinner when he comes by Aaru Village.

Kaveh, at home, taking care of groceries, telling him to join him in a game of cards and some drinks. When they both need coffee and they don't have any at home.

He takes a bite out of the wrap and takes his time chewing while he watches his roommate sputter. "That's exactly why we should go then; while the trail is still warm, and when it's most likely to find them in activity, is it not?"

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He misses what it means to accompany him places, even their usual dinner plans like this. Kaveh, being far more sentimental, still struggles to make of Alhaitham a simple familiar face or a friend. The void of their meaning is a constant ache in his chest, one he often disregards in hopes that it rots away on its own. He doesn't talk about it to anybody, he's even reluctant to write about it in his sketchbook. Kaveh believes if he were to give it a definition, they might truly become permanently broken.
Still, it's not any less painful than the shell he feels they are now.

He lets him take his leftovers. Kaveh would never pick a fight for it. Even when it comes to Alhaitham, he leans into the fulfilling sensation of giving. He finishes his second cup of wine.
"That, ugh," he pinches his nose, "fine. I'll have to take the morning tomorrow to do some cleaning and pack anything we might need for the trip. But if your arm is still giving you issues," even if they are nonexistent, he's just concerned, "then it's okay to postpone," one could argue that his is tipsy commentary and that he's slowly forgoing the control of where his thoughts are heading. "You always think you're sooo invincible."

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those new icons 😳

heh, thank you!

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